Monday, August 27, 2012

Manic Monday and ME

We all know....I hate Mondays! But this particular one may just best me yet.

I QUIT SMOKING TODAY!'s making me NUTS! Like seriously. Full blown panic mode, feeling really crazy, feeling like I don't belong in my own skin. NUTS! OMGosh! I feel mentally challenged. Currently, I am sitting at work, rocking back and forth in my chair, because I can't figure out what to do with myself. I want to smoke. I want to scream. I don't want to smoke because I don't want to start Day 1 all over again tomorrow. I want to scream. I know that cold turkey is hard, but I really couldn't see the point of chewing nicotine gums or using nicotine patches, only to have yet another thing I have to break the addiction from.

I have almost drank my water today. Which is good. But I've eaten bad. Not just bad.....but baaaaaaaaaaaad! I think that I've almost ate an entire box of Zesty Salsa Wheat Thins. And I've chewed at least 20 pieces of gum today. But if that means I'm not smoking, I'll take it. I can deal with the weight loss later.

 I was going to start my exercise today, but I've been very sick. Laid in bed or on the couch all day yesterday. Had a slight cough and sniffle, then got a major headache, then ending losing my dinner. Hanging in there, but feeling a little puny still today. So I'll give myself another day of rest and go from there.

My goals today: Not smoke. Not kill anyone. Drink my water. That should suffice today.

1 comment:

  1. Good for you for stopping smoking!!! <3 Keep it up! You can do it!!!